Today I would like to thank you all of you for reading my tale. When I started logging i did not have an idea of what to write or how to do it. On the other hand, this idea for a book came to me about a year ago and i needed to test myself. Thanks to you i know that i have something that can be good in my hands and i will try and develop it thanks to your kindness and comments. I appreciate them very much.

I will be on holiday now, but i will be back. There are unfinished characters with their stories by the middle, others are near to the end. I strongly feel the need to include more characters, if you allow me so.

To all the persons i love and who have been following me, also a big Thanks and a big I LOVE YOU. I carry you in my heart and in my mind, and the distance is only distance when there is love. Allow me to remind that friendship is also a kind of love for all new aquaintances, specially the ones that have come here (Lady G, S Ginny, Bengal,Rivera, Detour, Blanck and many more) to share my first pseudo literary steps.

Last but not least: "My rose is special" said the little prince. "All the care and time I have had for her have made her special. The rest of you are only roses"

My love:

Reciprocity is very important in loving. If you can write to me but I can not do it because I have not been given a proper address, then something is missing. Yes, you are far away and in difficult situations, but post is delivered for the others. Why not for you? Other thing I have noticed is your rudeness. Ok, you are working in a male enviroment, but do you need to become so rude?

Confidence and trust mean that someone is totally sure that she-he will not be hurt when dealing with other persons. They normally come from experience even if some times we do it just by heart. How can I trust if any time i am with my heart open, trying to be close to you however i can i just receive a bucket of freezing water?

I must finish now as I have lots of work for these days.

Love you

                                             Patty

And that denial is the clue for everything. would any healthy man deny the enormous attractive that Tina Turner has? Would the avid teenagers deny the attraction that young acctresses have in them? My mother's generation went mad for Tyrone Power and they did not deny it. They were married, single or commited. Because socially is accepted to feel attracted to some one. There is even acepted to say that some one is attractive. There are sayings like "Old hens five good stock" etc, etc. Only he denies it.

There are many reasons behind. I don't know them. One is the iron will to arrive somewhere on his own. Other is the need to give his friends and family the image they want him to give, without aknowledging his own humanity, his own heart, his own soul.

On the other hand, Rose is used to attraction. She copes with it every day and enjoys happy and light friendship of every age admirers. That has not make her different, she is very conscious of her status and situation socially speaking as we have seen that emotionally she is lonely and hungry for love. This has been the part of herself she ignored.

There was a time in the occidental world when there was not sexual freedom. Sex was considered a secret for married people. Horrible histories about girls giving their children to institutions because they had "done" it without being married circulate and  from time to time the newspapers talk about.

Opposite to that time where sex outside marriage was a sin (conceptually only, as not in practice) this era explores and explains the subject many times in many ways. It is not worldwide though.

Sexual tension is the atraction felt by two people that obviously like each other, physically and some times also psychologically, intellectually. But is more physical than other. If you want to have an example: Sybil Shepphard and Bruce Willis in Moonlight, or the glorious Katherine Hepburn and Spencer Tracy. It is something that can be cut with a pair of scissors. The Movie's directors can see it and help them pair their couples when casting. Other example could be to put two magnets very close but not allow them to touch each other. You will feel it in your fingers, how they try to touch each other, but you are not allowing it.

That attraction exists between Adam and Rose. It has been detected by some people at the office. Rose has clearly aknowledge it. Adam denies it.

Oh, oh, i can see that somebody is in trouble. He should'nt had pulled the strings so much. Now Patty is decided to hold her ground. If i know some one that is able to apply cold discipline is her. Not in vain she has been discipline teacher for so many years. Poor Julian. On the other hand he deserves it. My mother used to say: Oh God, take care of me when I am in calm waters, because I take care of myself when I am in the wild ones"

Adam has also a cold mind and a trained body. He can hide his eyes to will and can also close all his mind and direct it towards his goal. I was a fanatic admirer of Mr Spock in Star trek. Maybe that is one of the reasons i felt so attracted to him. It is extremely interesting to see him in action. I want to see where is he going. The only problem is that even when he sees himself as someone able to control his feelings and his dark side I can feel them both.