I have some much needed things to take care of online and with the cold weather here I am.  I love fall (the leaves, the rut (deer and elk), the chill of the night air), but I hate winter.  I've been outside all summer and loved it, but with the drop in temp. I find myself here, online.  I missed all my online buddies - hope y'all had a great summer.  My little miracle is becoming a big boy - turned 2 last month.  He's doing great!! Me, not so much....but God has a plan (just wish I had a clue what it is ;-)

Thanks so much to the special ladies who lifted me up, when you've been there you know what it means.  I'm still stuck in the poo, but my spirit is lifted.  I was starting to get pretty resentfull at the way things and people are. Oh, too be in heaven someday with no tears and a perfect body....If you haven't, and want to check out Gavin's pages....(cut and paste)
http://gavin.miraclebaby.rusnell.googlepages.com/home

It can be a rough road and sometimes we need to be carried... It's so hard not to get frustrated and down when your health is failing and your doctors are equivilant to your veternarians, but more expensive - my creatinine is 2.5, my diabetes is way out of whack and I'm not a good transplant candidate (so many health problems).  Gavin and I have medical assistance, but it doesn't pay for gas, etc and our home is unsafe (due to age and conditions)  I know the Lord has a plan, but I feel like I'm drowning.  Thanks for the prayers and well wishes.  For those of you who have went through truly tough times - with a smile - your faith must be strong.  I wish I were more like you in Spirit....

please refer to my last post of  "in the hole..."
selling has brought me $63.81 and it has cost me $61.33 + addt. postage - so I'm in the hole...yes, it hurts, I'm about to go back to yard sales to raise money for Gavin and my medical expenses.